OolaPalooza Day 1

Yesterday was a bit harried.  I did not make it to the full day of OolaPalooza, as I had work.  However, I did arrive by 2:30 and was able to get settled fairly quickly.  The goal setting process had just begun and I had my first two big ones to work on...Fitness and Finance.

Fitness -- I am struggling with this area and frankly, don't know why.  Today we are going over OolaBlockers and so, I hope to reveal the problem.  Dr. Dave and I talked about it last night...he asked key questions such as, am I lazy? (no)  Do I think I look ok? (yes, but just ok -- not how I want to look) I threw out that perhaps I had some pent up anger from my past, having been told my entire life I needed to lose weight.  That is a possibility -- rebellion at the age of 56?  Still???  I need to get over it.  What about fear?  I do get strangely freaked out when men notice me, which they do when I am thin.  It truly scares me.  Maybe because they are free and easy with the lewd comments.   Of course, I am not the people-pleaser of the past, so truthfully, I think I could easily put someone in their place -- and quickly.  Perhaps because I was molested at a young age?  Maybe.  That could also be the reason I tend to have male friends, and if they are gay, all the better.  Yes, I am extremely complex when it comes to this weight issue.  My daughter says, "Just do it!  You will feel so much better about yourself."  True--preach it, girlfriend!

What about finance?  I am finally out of the financial quagmire that I was in for the past three years.  I can now move forward with my life.  It is a huge weight that has been lifted.  My biggest goals are to make a will, start an emergency fund and begin paying an extra $150/month toward debt.  Simple, attainable goals that will make me feel so much better about my future.

I set goals in the other areas of life as well...field, faith, friends, family and fun.  All achievable.  Today is key.  I hope it will help me sort out my difficulties with weight loss issues.  I hate the cycle of yo-yoing and want to get off of this merry-go-round forever.  I want to look and feel great and not feel guilt/shame/fear anymore.  I know that this is key to moving forward with my life and being the best I can be.

And so, this pretty much sums up "my" day one of OolaPalooza.  There was so much more that I missed, but bear in mind, in three hours,  I set 21 goals for the 7 key areas of my life.   We also had a bomb concert by JT Hodges and were treated to appetizers in the Hard Rock penthouse.  One gal won a night's stay in it with her friends!  Yes, the Oola team is incredibly generous.   Today we will narrow down our goals until we reach #1 for the year.  I know mine will have to be fitness.  It has to be.  I am scared but if your dreams don't scare you, they're not big enough.

So dream big -- and go get your Oola life!